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Wednesday, October 31, 2007 3:17 pm
311007 listen, ♥  if only i love you that much. after years of blogging. i finally come to realise, i've never blogged what i really felt. i've been hiding myself. and as i blog hop. i see people really pouring out their feelings in their blogs. why carnt i do the same? maybe because i'm afraid of people knwing the real me. but, if they say they knw the real me, they must be a genius. because i myself do not knw myself. what i am made of and why i am here. i question myself and my life. does my existence really mean anything? or am i just here to be a source of trouble? i'm in doubt. i've never pouured out my feelings, anyone and everyone can visit my blog. how would i knw who ever sees what i post? how sure can i be that everything i wrote in here is a real kept secret. no one can assure me of that. whats the point of having a blog and making it private? i might as well not have one. is being the real me and pouring out my feelings so difficult? maybe it is. i've been hiding my true identity. who knws the real me? who really understands me? why, that is the question i put across. fuck life. fuck all that i've said. they're all lies. and so? am i wrong to hide myself? my identity and who i really am? no. i am not! everyone hides their true identity. you'll never know that your friends are actually your biggest enemies. betrayal is a very common thing now. who knws whn the day would come. it'll hit you hard. oh well, i'm nobody to say anything right? i dun care! i dun fucking give shit anymore. this blog has hidden my feelings for sure a long time. thanks bloggie! find me stupid, find me retarded. fuck that innocence out of you, aint you a retard as well? you're reading a retarrd's blog please! oh well, fuck life and everything. i'm leaving all behind. i'm living life my own way. fuck life, fuck everything, fuck forever, fuck eternity. shit head! THE FORGOTTEN. is the love we share real or just lies? CLARE! (:
2:46 pm
311007 listen, ♥  i gotta go my own way. lalalallalalas~ as you can tell, frm what i typed. i am BORED! lols. whats new right? lalalalallalalalalalalas~ blahhhhhhh blahhhhhhh! i did nth much the whole day. practically BORED! i'm dying of boredom. lololololololololols! diaownnnnnnn! lalalalalalallalalalalalalalallas~ crazy! buhhbyeee! xP THERE ARE TIMES IN OUR LIVES WHEN WE HAVE TO LET GO. sometimes its wrong to walk away. CLARE! (:
Tuesday, October 30, 2007 12:27 pm
(: listen, ♥  little things you give away. BECAUSE CLARE LOVES YOU. (: in times of need, its you i seek. in times of despair, you're the one i wanna have by my side. in troubled days, you resolve my problems. through thick and thin, you stood by me. i'm sorry for taking you for granted at times. maybe its all meant to be. THE ONLY MISTAKE I'VE MADE IN MY LIFE IS TO LOVE AND THN HURT YOU. whn goodbye seems to be the hardest word. CLARE! (:
12:18 pm
301007 listen, ♥  cause they are your friends. hellos. (: the kids were soooo cute! hahas. [; oh well. (: tired and dead beat. hahas. back aches to the max please! blahh blahh blahh! nth to say. hahahahahhahas. thanks for the love that we share. byeeeee! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAOGONG! x33 SHE WILL BE LOVED. cause we lost it all. CLARE! (:
Monday, October 29, 2007 12:58 pm
291007 listen, ♥  a simple word can hit me so hard. kerby's confirmation was funn! we took many many pictures. hehehhes. it was a lil boring though. but it suure brings bck memories. hahahas. i miss my confirmation. heeeees` yupps. oh well, wheeeeees` nth to blog abt. hahahahas. byeeee! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL! [sorry its belated] HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUEE! JEALOUSY IS A SCARY FEELING. love like never before. CLARE! (:
Friday, October 26, 2007 2:24 pm
261007 listen, ♥  play those beautiful moments again. HOLIDAY STARTS FROM TODAY! [; i am happy and EXTREMELY glad. (; i get to rest and prepare for next year. results in december. i'm awaiting i wish it comes faster, but as the day goes by, i start to fear. JIAYOUS (: i'll do well i guess. PRAYING! hhahahas. hmmm, theres nth to blog derhs. THANKS FOR HELPING ME MAKE THE BLOGSKIN IYLIA! (; LOVEEEEEEEEEEE! xDDD yays! holiday. (; xueting's shopping at bangkok lerhs. i'm still at home doing nothing. ahahhahahas. byeeeee! xD I LOVE CORNY! x33 I'VE SUNK TOO DEEP TO EVER CLIMB BACK AGAIN. tell me thats nt another dream. CLARE! (:
Thursday, October 25, 2007 4:00 pm
251007 listen, ♥  morning has broken. damn sadd now. i dunno what happened. the picture mr lee and i took is missing. i'm damn sadd. crying my hearts out. ): haiish. nvrmind thn. waiting for him to send me the pictures. haiish. i loved the picture i took with him lorhs. ): tooooo badd. maybe its nt my day bahs. i woke up at 7am. i was suspose to wake up at 8am until, i received cien's sms. hehh` whatever luhs. thn went to sch just to see mr lee and bid him farewell. yupps. hmm, boredd. aft that went home lerhs. xueting going to bangkok tmr. ): sian lehs. hehehehes. okayys. (: i wanna change blogskins. waiting for iylia to send me the html. thn i can have a new blogskin. hehh` have a safe trip sweetie! LOVE YOU! x33 HOLD ME IN YOUR EMBRACE. that innocence has died off. CLARE! (:
Wednesday, October 24, 2007 6:26 pm
241007 listen, ♥  hand in hand, love is sent. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENN!TUESDAY! xDD our trip to sentosa to celebrate cien's birthday. yupps. had funn. and totally gt sun burnt. i'm chao tad. LOLS! but i'm loving it. i hope cien enjoyed herself. yinxiu was nt feeling well, so she didnt go. xueting was sick, she didnt go as well. so it was down to cien, leong an and me. (; yupps. i enjoyed mysekf hell loads. and we really went crazy. we met in the morning for breakfast and thn went to vivo. saw aaron and kunhao. they came to celebrate birthdays as well. hahas. so coincidental. hahas. yupps. but we went seperate ways. hahas. cien didnt wanna go with them. so be it. we had our own fun. (; hehehehehhes. yupps. hmm, thn we played with the water and thn lunch was chips. LOLS! we keep getting sting. leong an decided to go to the center. the waves were AWESOME! (; omg! i carnt believe i loved it. (; hahahahhahas. (; yupps. thn went to the center. we placed our stuff under the life guard's seat. hahahahahhas. yupps thn we went to have fun. and thn we went to have tea time. hahahahahhas. ate cup noodles. and thn went to play AGAIN! (; played frm 12-5pm. ahhahahhas. crazy right!? hahas! yupps. cien couldnt get enough of it. hahahahhas. thn went to bathe and thn we left sentosa at 615pm. arrived at vivo at 630pm. and took a bus all the way to jurong east for dinner. hahas ate kfc. and thn walked arnd the arcade and thn home. (; it was a pretty great day i should say. i have tremendous fun and i would wanna enjoyed myself like that more. maybe on my birthday? hahahahas. its like next year. BLEAHS! (x alrights. came home all red and burnt. get laughed at. lols. and thanks arhs thomas. for wacking me. LOLS! (x yupps. thn home i went and thn bathed and then slept. was damn tired. whn am i nt tired aft a day at sea? hahahahas. sea breeze. (x i'm crapping. hhehh` HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOUGLAS! HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAYYOKE! WEDNESDAY! xDD i crawled out of bed SUPER EARLY just to get my ass to sch. i literally DRAGGED myself out frm bed. LOLS! i was totally red and guess what. i couldnt sleep well the previous night cos i was hurting like CRAZY! its still hurting but maybe thats what i need. lols. i'm being crazy and retarded. my feelings are like being mixed in a bottle. i dunno what i am thinking or doing. nothing seems right. CRAZY! i'm like waiting for the singtel person to come. they said they will be here arnd 4-6pm. but its not 640pm, and they are no where in sight. incompetant can i say? ohh well, who cares?! my parents are gonna scream whn they get home. i bet. LOLS! the phone has been giving problems. crap. oh well. today's my love's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SUNSHINE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. today's many people's birthday too. hahahahahas! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUNSHINE! (; HAPPY BIRTHDAY CIEN DEARR! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH! alrighties! thats all. (; my body is still burning. shld i say, i regret nt putting sun tan lotion?! lols! cos if i put, it wouldnt hurt sooooo hurt. LOLS! mr lee's last day in tanglin is tmr. gonna bid him farewell. its sad to see him go, but everyone has to move on. i'm trying very hard to convince myself. okayy. thats all! GOODBYE! xP because you're nt as special as he is to me. WE'RE SINGING IN THE RAIN. & to me, you are the world! CLARE! (:
Monday, October 22, 2007 9:39 pm
221007 listen, ♥  i called out your name but all you did was walk away. today is a boring day. hehh` woke up early. met xueting and cien for lunch. the went to felicia's hse to pass her a calculator. thn went to xueting's hse. spent my whole day there cos there was nothing to do. cleaned her hse. and her wardrobe. cos it was in a very big mess. hahahahahhas! decided on what she shld wear and thn folded hearts. soon aft, we were talking and thn to xueting's mum room we went. watched dumb dumb things on youtube. it was dumb but totally hilarious. GOOD LUCK FOR O LVLS! (; MANCHESTER UNITED won 4-1 (; awesome job done. RONALDO was a substitute though. which was quite a sad thing. thn aft watching the videos, went to meet kerby in the bus, mummyh and daddy at vivo. bought jeremy's birthday present. and thn bought 2 shirts frm esprit. (; i love the shirts. heeeees` hahahahas. yupps. tired tired tired. waiting for hair to dry thn sleep. hehh` tmr going to sentosa to celebrate cien's birthday. whees` hopefully we'll have funn. PICTURES! (; I FINALLY REALISE HOW VULNERABLE LIFE IS. anything can happen if we take the chance. CLARE! (:
Saturday, October 20, 2007 9:04 pm
201007 listen, ♥  my life with you means everything. germans wanted a negotiated peace not dictated peace. LOLS! that was random and sooooo history! omg, i havent forgotten what i have learnt. CRAZY! liverpool isnt doing very well with their match now. its still a draw. JIAYOUS LIVERPOOL! EVERTON SUCKS remember? (x hmm, i have nth to blogg abt lehs. (x thank god i last blogged ytd. okayys. what did i do today? woke up early. at 1030am. it IS early for it alright? LOLS! (; thn used the laptop for awhile. wireless rocks can? it works faster. FINALLY! (; yupps. thn gt ready. bathed and changed and thn went to orchard with mummy. thn went to novena church. hehes. aft that went for lunch. (; chicken rice was NICE! (; hehehehehhes! yupps, thn went to novena to take a train to ang mo kio. went to the ang mo kio hub. LOLS! first time there. almost gt lost. and ang mo kio isnt a very familiar place to me so, yupp. LOLS! (; yup yup. thn went to church and thn came home. printed felicia sweetheart's notes. and i have to give her the calculator on monday. cos i can get it only then. must call chin hwee or the others to borrow the calculator. yupps. JIAYOUS FOR YOUR O LVL PAPERS MY FRIENDS! (; YOU'LL DO GREAT! (; and that's all i'm blogging about. i'm gonna watch my MANCHESTER UNITED match at 1210am. GO MANCHESTER UNITED! JIAYOUS! GOODBYE! x33 WITHOUT YOU I'LL BE NOTHING. be my love and not my nothing. CLARE! (:
Friday, October 19, 2007 4:39 pm
191007 listen, ♥  and you left me just when i needed you most. HELLOS! (; updating// WEDNESDAY! xDD i went to sch for trng, didnt go for any class. but had maths lessons. SIAN! LOLS! (x didnt get anything into my head and not planning to. (: hehh` went home aft sch. soooooo tired please! it was a bad day for me i guess. i saw someone i didnt wanna see. in sch and on the bus. how unlucky can i get? becky, i gave all the presents lerhs. (; THURSDAY! xDD didnt go to sch. cos sch ended late. i stayed home the whole day. (; good right? hahahahhahas! configured the laptop. (; bored. hahas FRIDAY! xDD i didnt go to sch as well. was toooooo lazy to do so. and theres nth to do in sch. it'll be a waste of time there. might as well stay home and sleep. (x hehhh` daddy woke me up today. cos wanted to do the internet for the laptop. so i dragged myself out of bed at like 10 or 11 plus. hehh` thn did the internet and i went down to buy breakfast. (; yupps. so came home with breakfast, ate it for lunch and now i'm hungry again. but its not time for dinner yet. hehh` bored. and thats all i've got to say. I MISS REBECCA! I MISS LOONEE! I MISS VALERIE! I MISS ALOT OF PEOPLE! xP GOODBYE! xDD WHAT IF I TOLD YOU IT WAS ALL MEANT TO BE? love is you alone. CLARE! (:
Tuesday, October 16, 2007 2:48 pm
161007 listen, ♥  when there was me and you. i'm sorry i've forgotten what i have done. hehh` i met rebecca on saturday. and i have to run an errand for her. no problem becky! (; rebecca went bck on sunday. ): i miss her alrdy! PORTUGAL WON! (: whees` very very very happy! tuition sucked. hehh` whats new? i'm boredd! i didnt go for trng. DRATS! tuition was soooooooo early. like damn it. i only remember it in the morning. LOLS! super horrible. but who cares?! i HATE tuition please! (x havent been sleeping well. siann. LOONEE MSGED ME THIS MORNING! (; sooooo happy please! finally. hahahs! (; i'm just being an idiot luhs. hehh` thats all! (; stupid! cannot d/l games into phone! asshole! I WANT GAMES PLEASE! xDD i'm BORED! GOODBYE! "the only mistake i've made in my life was to love you and thn hurt you. i'm sorry but you'll always be the one for me. i promise i've never meant to hurt you. my heart will always be with you. its the promise we've made. because i love you." TAKE MY HAND, NEVER LET GO. i see you lying next to me. CLARE! (:
Thursday, October 11, 2007 8:57 pm
111007 listen, ♥  baby, you are loved. hellos. (: i havent blogged. i knw. i carnt visit my blog. so irritating please! bleahs! WEDNESDAY! xD xueting's birthday. (: obviously, we celebrated her birthday. met at clementi macs for lunch. thn went off to vivo city. bought movie tickets. toilet and thn to buy drinks. theatre we went to. ohh gosh! we sat like right infront. seesh! it sucked. my neck damn cramp nw. but i was all right. (: as long as xueting's happy. the movie wasnt that fantastic. nt up to my expectations but worth watching i guess. yupps. thn went to see the pets. i was browsing through the whole shop. hahas. to see if i could find anything for marcus. thn xueting helped me find a ball and i bought it for marcus. (: yupps. bth of us were together for soooo long and the other 3 didnt even notice. so both of us went to the other shop. xueting bought cien's birthday present. (: hahas. thn we walked bck. thn they came out. i didnt care much. (: seriously. hehh` thn xueting and i took the bus home. the 3 of them took the train. yupps. xueting waited with me for bus. and thn off i went. met friends and thn went home. reached home late. LOLS! (x TODAY! xD woke up at 10 plus. rebecca buzzed me and i woke up. hahas! (x yupps, thn i got ready and went to her hse. i brought the chicken curry nanny made. (: hahas. yupps. (; took a bus to jurong east. saw eugene and kok tong. they gave me a shock of my life. called my name and i went off. saying bye. all i did was smile. (; took the bus to rebecca's hse. hehh` omg luhs. i alighted at the wrong stop. hurr. one stop before rebecca's hse. freaked out. hahas! thn walked to her bus stop and thn to her hse. hahahahahhas! (; i knw i'm a dumb dumb. hahahahhas! (; watched dvd and thn watched teevee until like 545pm? hahas. thn i went home. rebecca went to brenda's hse to stay ovr. HAVE FUN VODA! LOVE YOU LOADS! okayy and guess what.. i took more thn 1 hr to reach home, like what the hell luhs. waited for 189 for soooooooo long please! idiotic! oh yahh, as we left, rebecca and i saw a shuai ge. (x hehehehehehe. he is hott! hehh` i'm being stupid please! i will see rebecca again! before she leaves. confident! positive. (: lalalas. bored bored bored now. ate my dinner and yupp. am blogging and watching teeeeveeee. hehehehehes. goodbye! the show is getting exciting. (; I CAN GIVE UP MY LIFE JUST TO LOVE YOU. will you still love me tomorrow? CLARE! (:
Tuesday, October 09, 2007 4:29 pm
091007 listen, ♥  get a life. well, HELLOS! (: MONDAY! xD woke up early. went out with rebecca! (: we went to watch the invasion. hehes. and thn walked arnd. thn we decided to go to the musuem. hehes. thn we didnt go in cos we had to pay. rebecca and i walked from plaza singapura to bugis. hahas. long long long walk. thn we ate tako pachi and thn went hm lerhs. rebecca came to my hse. thn we waited for mummy. thn we went to sakae sushi for dinner. (: rebecca and i were soooo funny luhs! we didnt noe the red plate cost 6.50 hahas. so we took the salmon. which is 6.50 hahas. thn aft we ate it.. we realised that it was sooo expensive. hahas! funny luhs. thn aft that went to my hse. i watched teevee. rebecca slept. hahas. thn korkor and i sent rebecca down. thn home i went. took out contacts, washed up thn slept. TUESDAY! xD woke up early in the morning. went for an interview. i hope i can find a job as soon as possible. so that i can earn an income for the family. haiish. i dun wanna work! if i work, i wouldn't have time to go for trngs! ): damn sadd! ate kfc for lunch. then walked arnd. sooooo bored luhs! siann. ): thn went home. whees~ hahas! thn went to take the long line home. hahas. yupps. sian. soooo tired. BYEEE! xD 就是你! ISNT IT ENOUGH? its time to let go of you. CLARE! (:
Sunday, October 07, 2007 5:46 pm
071007 listen, ♥  its your decision, its your choice. whees` rebecca came to sleep ovr at my hse. it was decided by her. and it wasnt last minute. we had super alot of funn. (: hehes. i guess. FRIDAY! (: went to see my friend with my friends. LOLS! (x thn ate at jurong point. walked for less thn 5 mins thn went home. suspose to luhs. hahas. (x but i decided not to. i went to aunty's office. (: and thn met mummy and thn headed home. rebecca called as soon as i reached home. hahas. so i went down to fetch her. (; stayovr! (: i hope she enjoyed it. cause we didnt do much. we had dinner and dessert. thn we watched teeveee, took out our lenses and went to bed by 1030pm. hahas. that was the end of friday. (: we slept it away. hahas. SATURDAY! woke up at 10am. thanks to leong an who woke both me and rebecca up. cos he msged me in the morning. LOLS! (x thn we went to wash up and thn ate breakfast. watched teevee aft that. i love the show STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE! (: it rocks can? its nt cartoon derhs. its teenagers nt cartoon please. LOLS! (x thn we watched teevee. and thn it was lunch. didnt have dessert cos we were too full. LOLS! (x thn we watched teevee, bathed and thn went to church. came home for dinner. watched MANUTD match (: rebecca gt soooo excited that she screamed like hell. hahas. i screamed like hell too. hahas! (; MANUTD WON 4-0. damn happy! (: tevez with the opening goal. (: thn RONALDO! (: he scroed TWICE! (: hehes. and lastly rooney's to end the game. (: hehehehehes! damn happy. (: thn rebecca decided to go home. daddy, marcus and i sent her down. and thn i watched soccer awhile and ate somemore food. and thn it was time for me to sleep. slept until this morning. SUNDAY! woke up at 9+. was late to meet des and feli! i was suspose to be there early to book a place, but i ended up being the last. so paiseh. but it was all right luhs. we ended up going to study at macs. LOLS! (; thn went home at 4pm. yupps. tmr going out with rebecca. hehes. (; i gt no school until wednesday. hahas! (; and i dun plan to go sch for the whole week. (: hehes. okayys. BYEEE! xDD ILOVEYOU! <333 I DUN NEED YOU TO LOVE ME. i complete myself. CLARE! (:
Friday, October 05, 2007 1:17 pm
051007 listen, ♥  as i get closer to you. YAYS! (: exams are OVER! :DD end of n lvls! finally, i can rest. updates! MONDAY! xD took e maths paper 1. whees. it was AWESOME! (: hehes. very very very happy! had tuition. blahh. TUESDAY! xD took physics paper. 1&2. and thn my biology papers. 5&6. hehh` and thn took a maths paper 1. KILLER PAPER! (x DIED! xD LOLS! (x met rebecca! (: LOVE YOU BECKY! <333 thanks for spending time with me. (: LOVE LOVE! <333 WEDNESDAY! xD took e maths paper 2. hehh` it was good. hehes. (x had tuition. blahh. THURSDAY! xD took history paper. wahh. sucked. it wasnt that bad luhs. just okayy. LOLS! (x yupps. thn a maths paper 2. siann. it sucked. DIED! death day. LOLS! (x FRIDAY! xD whees` best paper of all. literature! (: i didnt complete the papers though. ): whees` END OF N LVLS. i can go out! going out soon! (: BECKY'S COMING TO STAY OVER! (: SO HAPPY! LOVE LOVE! <333 MAGNIFY THE BEAUTY. i'm no longer there for you to embrace. CLARE! (: |
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